eddie out:: I guess we all need one of these...

Yesterday was not a great day. I know some days are just that way, but I was still more thankful than usual to fall into bed last night. I should have known that it might be a long day when before Joe even left for work he came to show me something in the living room.

As a little history, the previous 2 hours (5:30-7:30AM) I had spent with Gabe who has some 6th sense of when I wake up in the morning and now my meditative moments in a silent house are shared with gabe and the quiet, peaceful noises of Tom & Jerry. The deal is that he gets to watch a show and I get to pretend that my devotional reading is not being interrupted by Gabe laughing hilariously at Tom's head getting smashed in by a large iron. I have reluctantly accepted this reality and adjusted to my morning companions, but the mornings when he not only is awake with me before first light AND wants to sit right next to me AND wants to play with my hair turns me into the meanest of mommy monsters. Yesterday was one of those mornings. The closer he wanted to be the more space I needed. He sensed my need for space and so being the sensitive almost 4-year-old that he is insisted on needing even more attention with an increasingly whiny voice. So after two hours of this I (in not so nice of a way) told gabe I just needed some space.

I headed to take a very long and very hot shower and when I was starting to feel better about myself Joe found me and said I needed to come with him to the living room. When I was in the shower, Joe couldn't find Gabe who was being unusually quiet. He eventually found him hiding in the pillows on the couch.

Gabe was obviously not playing a fun game of hide and seek, and was fairly quiet and solemn. Joe asked Gabe why he was hiding back there, Gabe told him he just needed to go to his lonely place for a little while. His lonely place, because he was feeling very lonely.